Therapy: Because Your Group Chat Isn’t Enough

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Therapy isn’t about being broken. It’s about paying a stranger to listen to your childhood trauma without telling you to “just drink tea and pray on it.”

The benefits?

You stop rehearsing arguments with people in the shower.
You learn “boundaries” isn’t a bad word.
And sometimes, you cry in a way that feel like cardio.

Honestly, therapy is just emotional Wi-Fi. You don’t know how disconnected you were from reality until someone restarted the router.

Have you ever worked with a therapist?

I was forced to work with a therapist after a suicide attempt many moons ago. It wasn’t helpful. It was forced, and I was broken. So, I shoved my thoughts to the furthest place of my mind. I answered the questions, with intent, the way they wanted me to. 10 required sessions turned into just 2, and I never went back.

I got a therapist this year. I told God I’d do the work and trusted my faith to do the rest. It has been an uneasy eye-opener. I believe that many folks don’t go to therapy because, aside from it being taboo, they’re afraid to relive the past. I avoided the needed conversations for too long. I denied myself much-deserved happiness, love, and joy, and therapy was the beginning of my way out of depression.

It has been refreshing talking to someone with an objective POV. Someone who actually listens to understand and not just responds out of emotion. I’ve found out so much about who I am at the core, and I realize that I haven’t even tapped into a percentage of my potential.

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